Taylor would have been 5 today

Fifth anniversaries are supposed to be special. Well, Taylor would have been 5 years old today. There's a lot of "She would be doing this/that" or "She should be standing there with the other (5 year old) kids" or "She should be in this class now..." It doesn't get easier.

I've always wanted to write a song for Taylor. But I sort of "lost" my creativity for a long time. The last song I've written was probably over a decade ago. I was determined to try this time. I've been practicing for 2 days and my fingers are a little sore. The lyrics below are from a Demo (i.e., Still not decided if they will be the final lyrics).'

  Kisses on Your Pillow 

Though it's been awhile
In my mind you're still the same
Your smile never fades away
Still I'm wishing you were here
Even more this time of the year

 (Prechorus)
Like a candle in the wind that's gone too soon
You didn’t have the time for a world under a blue moon 

(Chorus)
So I’ll leave... you kisses on your pillow
 Just remember whom they’re from down below
If you catch a falling star
Send it close to where we are
Then we’ll sleep with your kisses on our pillow
But for now, just for now, that's how it'll be

Another year
How can time stand so still
 Yet move like a crazy train
All those missing photographs
Now I take them in my mind.

 (Prechorus)
I don't know what you would look like if you stayed But I sure hope that you would know me on that day… On that day… On that day...

 (Chorus)
 So I’ll leave you kisses on your pillow
 Just remember whom they’re from down below
If you catch a falling star
Send it close to where we are
Then we’ll sleep with your kisses on our pillow But for now, just for now, that's how it'll be